Tallah - No One Should Read This

Artist: Tallah
Release: No One Should Read This


1. Kungan

So here is just the way it is:
I’m not clever enough to fix it
So I try my best to twist it
List the reasons to go
And reasons to stay
Keep it in my chest pocket
Keep it close to me—not near my mother
No, she’s always following like a hunter
Creeping through the shadows
‘Cause she dwells in every corner
An assimilated fixture that be’ stalking like a porter
She likes to dress me up
I swear she treats me like a daughter

But she don’t remember me
That picture on her dresser—she pretends that’s me
You know, it’s like an endless seam
That’s running down the leg of this relentless empress

I have heard it
The voice that talks right by my window
‘Is there anybody home inside?
Is there anybody home inside your head?’
You tell me…
You tell me…

I’ve lost track of the times I’ve hurt myself
Life’s simple wonders
Yo, this authority speaks with a voice that’s so loud,
It makes me tuck my tail and hop home
Protect me from myself
How about protect me from myself?
You are a saint ‘cause you protect me from my-fucking-self

I have heard it
The voice that talks right by my window
‘Is there anybody home inside?
Is there anybody home inside your head?’
You tell me…
You tell me…

[scatting]
Whatever

I’d say today’s the day to turn away
Can’t fuck this up

Are you petrified?
Call mother!
Say I’m not okay
All I feel inside’s coming onto to the carpet floor
Are you petrified?
Call mother!
I am not okay
All I feel inside’s coming onto to the carpet floor

2. Placenta

I’m trying to accommodate my cell
Feature a wee creature who looks just like me
He doesn’t like me much…
Says I’m too fucked up to be discreet
Says I’m obsolete now
Could be the storm of the century
Said to me, “You got some potential
Admit it, we should end her”
Mother’s surprised I made a dent this far…
Got the leash around my neck
Surprised it went this long
Bitch

No one should read this
No one should read this
No one should ever know how tight it tugs

It’s cutting deeper through the muscle
Towards the other side
‘Cause she can’t stand to be alone
There’s no one left to take the pressure
Got me all by myself
‘Cause she’s my placenta

Aye, listen…
How do I plant this shit quick?
She’s like a tripwire,
So I can’t step swift
Wish I could sit this out
Because I know I’m gonna regret this
How far do I get
Before you whiff up my scent, bitch?

No one should read this
No one should read this
No one should ever know how tight it tugs

It’s cutting deeper through the muscle
-Towards the other side
‘Cause she can’t stand to be alone
There’s no one left to take the pressure
Got me all by myself
‘Cause she’s my placenta
She’s my placenta

I don’t believe in you anymore
Belly-up the lies that I tell myself
I don’t believe in you anymore
Ma’, I’ma come help you cut the cord
Cut the cord
Cut the fucking cord
Cut the fucking cord

I’ve become bitter
I’m not prepared for this
Why can’t she push me out?
Reason’s truly left her
I’m not prepared for this
Why can’t she push me out?

No one should read this
No one should read this
No one should ever know how tight it tugs
Fuck

It’s cutting deeper through the muscle
Towards the other side
‘Cause she can’t stand to be alone
There’s no one left to take the pressure
Got me all by myself
‘Cause she’s my placenta

3. We, The Sad

Welcome to my eternity
I am the recluse who balked his maturity
I am a slave to my own insecurities
I am the culprit in the eyes of the jury
Welcome to my pain
I’m the definition of a bitch been spayed
Watch in fascination as the parasites sway
Fear my explanation as it’s thrown away

This is the cry of a man with no purpose
This is the song you will sing at his grave

But that’s me…
I’m sad
I’m sick of being trapped inside
It’s decaying all I see
There’s no use in getting better
These things, they multiply
Are we not supposed to feel more than sad?

She is the thorn in my side
She is my possessor
She is my whole life
She is my coffin
If you don’t believe,
Open up my stomach
Watch the parasites sway

Disease you, disease me
This is an oppression
Society silently kills me
She’s a wretch in disguise
I am her child, and she is my mind
I am denial, and she is behind every thought
Every violent thought
Every violent thought
Every violent thought
Every violent thought

This is the look of a man whose been gelded
This is the way that he handles his pain

But that’s me…
I’m sad
I’m sick of being trapped inside
It’s decaying all I see
There’s no use in getting better
These things, they multiply
Are we not supposed to feel more than sad?

Here comes the flood
And she dams it every day
O’ she keeps the pressure right
Until I drown under my own shit!

We are the sad
We are the diseased
We need our mother to relieve our pain
To pull us up—pull us up
To pull us up—pull us up
To pull us up—pull us up
To pull us up—pull us up

4. Cottonmouth

Life’s been strange…
I can’t even put into words how productive I’ve been
Put the thread through needle head
Sew up my insane
Sew up my insane—no!
Trust me, you’re better off dead
And I’m keeping your arms on the mantle
To remind me how much you cared

O’ god!
She didn’t see me playing opossum
T’was awesome!
I hippity-hippity-hopped until I dropped her
Her body was a mess
I confess!
Just a bunch of hanging corpse parts
La lala lala!
I’m fucking hopping down the bunny trail

Looks like Easter’s come early…
Teeheehee!

Life’s been strange…
I can’t even put into words how productive I’ve been
Put the thread through needle head
Sew up my insane
Sew up my insane—no!
Trust me, you’re better off dead
And I’m keeping your arms on the mantle
To remind me how much you cared

I see no evil
I hear no evil
I speak no evil
My dear, it’s not evil
I see no evil
I hear no evil
I speak no evil
My dear, it’s not evil

You can’t stop me!

Is this what it’s like?
Is this what it’s like
To have everything you could want in your life?
Is this what it’s like?
Is this what it’s like
To know that you’ll never wake up from tonight?

5. Red Light

I’m a frog
I croak in a pond of blood

She’s still a part of me
I can feel those rust-licked fingers wriggling
[moan]
This garden has been littered with pesticides

Red light—red light
I’m a poor boy!
Red light—red light
Is this heresy, heresy?
Must be heresy, heresy

The spots have the answers
They’re connected in gold
But I can’t even go outside
‘Cause I don’t have the code

She knocked twice—aye
Hun, you gotta go…
Hun, you gotta go outside of this contraption
No more action
Accidents—infractions
Doesn’t match up?
Oh…
Hey, I thought it would be easy!
You better forget her…
She couldn’t die without reason
Go get an umbrella
‘Cause it be raining hella’ treason
She’ deader than dead
But p-p-p-p-p-p-please don’t go

We lost the race—it’s benign
To walk the borderline of pain
As the artist paints the dream
No safety belts tonight,
For it’s time to start the show!
I’m running away from this quiet

These rotten parts stink better every day
Every single person has a story they’re not telling
La la lala la!
Guess it while you can…
‘Cause all the girls around my block
Are soon to lose their heads!

We lost the race—it’s benign
To walk the borderline of pain
As the artist paints the dream
No safety belts tonight,
For it’s time to start the show!
I’m running away from this quiet

They think I’m crazy?
We’ll prove them right, my friends
We’ll break their bones
And cut their throats
-Shove them under the bed
You think I’m stupid?
Let’s show what’s in our head…
I’ll break your bones,
Cut your throat,
Shove you under my bed!

We lost the race—it’s benign
To walk the borderline of pain
As the artist paints the dream
No safety belts tonight,
For it’s time to start the show!
I’m running away from this quiet

Red light—red light
I’m a poor boy!
Red light—red light
This is heresy, heresy
Heresy, heresy
Red light—red light

I’d like to imagine it more as a sunrise in Paris
But the rivers keep flowing with a red color
I suppose it’s just the way things go…